Thursday, August 09, 2007
I think i have lost it.. yea, seriously u are no longer something i can claim which is mine.
The moments when we could read each other's mind,
The hours we spent together,
The days when we gave each other the support to move on,
The months we suffered together,
The years when we dreamt about the future together,
The times when we made the vow not to drift far apart...
Everything stated above was true. Except the last sentence. That one vow itself became transparent and it eventually disappeared into the thin air just like that *snaps finger*.
How and why did this happen?
Misunderstanding... Lack of communication... Refusal to accept the fact...
First and foremost, get the fact right that i do have commitments. It is not as if that my world is school and nothing else. I do have other commitments like RED CROSS. Can u like get that into ur mind??? RED CROSS!!! my passion since young. it is not as if i forgot u or something. My projects just plied up and i spend half of my day in sch, the other quarter in HQ and the last quarter at home to bath & sleep. I dun even get to catch up what is happening outside.
You dun anyhow accuse of ppl occupying my time or that i forget u eversince i got new ppl in my life. I am not such person!!! OLD is still GOLD for me. I dun know abt u :$ If u think something is wrong, then clarify with me face to face. If dun wan, use the msn. If nt e-mail. Worst still, letters or pigeons. I dun mind. I tried my best to clarify things wif u but u din want to take the next step. You said there is nth to clarify. Always i got to be the one to stoop low and wait. I dun mind if u are the kind of person who appreciate it. But look at urself in the mirror and ask this qn: " Do i really deserve this? People are being nice to me and all i do is to refuse to understand them?" I dun know how u look at the outside world. But i only got 3 things to tell u...
1. Accept people for what/who they are.
2. Learn to look at the outside world in a broader view.
3. Clarify if there is something u are not comfortable with or sure about. This would prevent about 101 more people from being irritated by you.
P.S: I HAVE NOT CHANGED AS A WHOLE. I learnt the fact the i got look at the world differently; in fact much differently than u, communicate with people from different backgrounds and learn to accept most of the world and people. i wouldn't say that i am perfect. Neither i would say that i am an idiot.
Why did i bring this up suddenly because, u got to know that u have hurt me very much. I am not angry with you. Just pure hurt. I am almost in tears, so u should know how bad things are now. I thought u would be the same old person whom i can always depend on for a helping hand but i guess i was wrong. When things got hard for me, i had to do something about it. I wished that u understood that. When i had other things that need to be done due to commitment, i wished that u understood that. When i tried to explain things to u, i wished that u understood. Now i know something, u can never understand things. U never accept things and u are what u think ppl are. I mean u are becoming what u assumed others were. In fact, i suppose u were the one who forgot the meaning of " OLD is Gold or that old is best." Trust me i have not. That's why i decided to blog about this. If i had been what u assumed i was, i would nt even acknowledge ur presence.
However, i am not such a person.
I do not accuse people and assume things.
I do not forget people including my frens.
Lastly, i am not those who forget the help one has done for me b4 & i do remember all the helps u have done for me all the while.
And i do thank you with all my heart for all the help u have done for me so far. *smiles*
The last thing i would like to say is that,
This is post is just for u...
For u my supposedly special one...
This is for you...
My Fren...