Tuesday, October 10, 2006
I am feeling like a complete idiot. I am just making things worst for myself.
I no longer trust myself already. I am afraid of taking steps to move on.
Everything is on hold now. I look like a mad woman for the fact. So many thoughts in mind, just dun knw when i can go crazy. I really need to have a good cry. But i just dun knw how to. I am always with others. I made it a point to go back home with frens if possible. If not i can go crazy thinking about all kinds of things. So forgive me if you happen to see me lost in my own world. I wave like a mad baboon in front of me. Why does it have to be me??? ME always... Never do mistake also get scolding... get blamed for... Do i really deserve this? if i do, tell me... i will accept any punishment. Better start thanking God/your anchestors or whoever because you are lucky. I am gona reach the maximum level of tolerance already. Don't u try to give it another shot... 'Coz u are bound to regret it... : )
