Wednesday, July 26, 2006
I just realise sth today...
That u are just getting on my nerves. I din do anything yet i get scolded for nth!
WTH!!! U told me to wake u up at 6.45pm. I replied okay. I went to take my shower after sometime. When i came out from the toilet, it was already 7pm. I wanted to wake u up first but thinking that u wld have to look at my untidy hair & not pleasant face, i decided to comb my hair and look presentable first. Who on earth knew that u were awake up at that moment? U came out of the room & told me " I asked u to wake me up rite, why din u? " My reply was that ' i was bathing. How to wake u up then?' U asked me again " why did u wake me up?" i had to reply u, so i said ' i just came out of the toliet. How was i suppose to wake u up at 6.45pm.' U said, " u could have asked ur younger sis to wake me up rite." What are u thinking? I have a watch all the time or that u have fixed a clock in the toilet so that i know that it is time to wake u up??? I simply replied ' i din knw that it was past 6.45pm alr'. u just closed the door with displeasure. WTH!!! it was not my fault in the first place. Yet, i have to get the blame. I am always getting the blame. What am i? A piece of animal?? Junk? U simply throw ur words & temper around and i have to bear with it? Too bad!!!! :P i am nt wat u think i shld be. I have my own thoughts. I too deserve a break at times. Have u ever thought of the times i keep my thoughts & feelings to myself?? I cldn't say it out... I just din have the space to let people around me know how i feel. This lead to people making use of me... They just use & throw me away whenever they want to. When they need me, then they pick me from the dump, fill me with their filth & as usual throw me back into the dump. GIVE ME A BREAK!!! i wan to be just like others but i can't. i wan to let people know how i feel but thinking about how hurt they might feel at the end just keeps my mouth shut. I care for feeling of others. But wat did i get? NTH!!! I really wish that someone would sponser me a ticket to India, Calcutta. The place where Mother Theresa's convent is. [i think]. Atleast i can help & give to those who need it more rather than those who dun knw how to appreciate or nt hurt me. I wan to give up but i can't. *ARGH* The feeling simply sucks. I think some people better thank me 'coz i chose to care for ur feelings. If i was selfish, u would have been hurt quite badly. And i mean very very badly hurt. Being a nice girl doesn't pay at all. Take my words to those who are reading this post...
It NEVER pays to be nice to people who aren't towards u. Treat people the way u wan others to treat u.
Lesson Learnt: Do care for others. But dun go to the extent that u forgot to care for ur own feelings.
WOW!!! saying wat i felt inside really made me feel better!
Cheerios peeps :D
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