Thursday, April 27, 2006
Today i went for a funeral...
A funeral which was so painful and became a unforgettable event for many...
This was no funeral of a person who has lived life to the fullest...
The person was a teenager, to be specific he was a 18-yr-old guy...
I went to his funeral wif my sis and her frens.
This guy was from my sister's sch and i didn't knw him at all but yesterday i rushed to the hospital at 7 plus in the evening to see him.
This guy was in the ICU for 1 week.
Last week he happen to fall from his balcony while sleepwalking. He fall onto a tree. There was a chinese funeral at the void deck. The people saw this and called the ambulance. He was sent to hospital. It was found tat he had internal injuries and one of his rib bone pierced right through his lung. One of his sides was badly injured. Then ytd my sis's fren called to say that he only has 1 to 2 hrs left for survival. My sis was shocked and started crying. I immediately told her to get ready and we left for the hospital in 15 mins time...
I, my sis and her fren rushed to the hospital. We saw a crowd of relatives and frens. We went inside the ICU to see him. It was my first time going into the ICU ward. I felt shivers running down my back. I looked around me... I was simply shocked seeing ppl with tubes inserted into them, having machines all around them. When i went inside to see the boy, tears automatically swelled in my eyes. I looked at him and i just left the room. I just cldn't take it. Afterall, he was the same age as me... Yet, he was suffering such a fate... There was tube inserted in his mouth, a tube coming in and out of his mouth. Machines were running beside him... It was not a pleasant sight. His body was swollen due to internal bleeding i guess. I left the room and went to the corridor. I cldn't help but to shed tears.
It was someone i din knw. Yet, i was crying for him... I was thinking how cruel was fate. Why this cldn't happen to someone who was evil/cruel/heartless/mean? Why this innocent guy? After some time, i noticed tat some of his relatives were called in by the nurses. Then a fren of his came outside and said tat they were changing his dressings inside. But i din believe it. How can they be changing dressing for someone whose time is ticking away?? Nevertheless i just kept quiet. Aftersome time, the fren broke the news. The guy has passed away. All of us there were shocked. Tears swelled in many eyes there. Those whose tears weren't visible, i knw that they were crying inside. I too cried. Then the father said that we can go in to look at him. I brought myself in with a heavy heart. I looked at him and started crying. I talked to him from the inside of my heart. " Though i dun knw who u are, i am crying here. I knw tat u are here somewhere in this room. I just want u to rest in peace. Please look over those who care and are crying their hearts out for u from heaven. I wished i knew u earlier. I wld have realised tat wat a great guy u were. Rest in peace..."(26/04/2006) With those words I left the room... Then b4 leaving, i came to see him once again. I saw his grandmother, cousin, aunties crying for him. I cldn't bear to see them crying for him. Afterall he has just started his life in poly.
I left home with a heavy heart wif my sis and her fren. I din go to sch 'coz i wanted to attend his funeral. I wanted to give him my last respects... My sis too din go to sch... So later in the afternoon, i and my sis went to meet her frens then we went together. B4 tat, my sis got him a rose since he loves roses like me... Then i told her why only get him one rose. Let's get his 2 more. We went to the flower shop getting another 2 roses , one in pink, another yellow while the last one was red. We went to his place.
I was the first one to step inside. I cld feel goosebumps. I wasn't sure whether i was able to withstand the pain. I just went in. I saw his body. There was in his coffin with him, his soccer ball, man-u jersey, his papers and stuff. I went to place the roses in this coffin. I was able to control my tears until the part when they were going to bring him away. I cldn't help crying. The scence i saw was sth i nvr wan to see in my life again.
His mother was crying for him.
His father cld bear to look at his son.
His brother seemed very lost without his brother.
The grandma was crying looking at his face.
Many of his sch frens were present too.
When the van was about to leave for mandai, there was this ropes tat shld be pulled by guys.
I just cldn't believe wat i saw...
The ones pulling it were mostly his fren...
Indians, Malays, Chinese... regardless of race n religion all of them pulled...
That was the last thing they cld do for their beloved fren...
There after all of them went to the mandai crematorium to send off their fren.
There i saw,
A grandmother crying out from her grandson tat he left b4 she did...
A father who was doing the final rites for his son when actually his son was suppose to do it for him in the future...
A brother who was crying inside, unable to take the truth tat his younger brother had left him...
A mother who needed to be supported by someone else...
Family crying for him....
Frens who had tears running down their cheeks...
You sure have proven to be a great guy when u were around...
When lastly his body was going inside the 'oven' ,many of there were crying out his name...
Asking him nt to leave them... Wishing tat it cld be them instead...
What i saw was sth tat i wld nvr ever forget in my life...
In my life i had only gone to funerals of old ppl...
I wan this funeral to be the last one i see of a teen...
As i type this, i can feel tears swelling in my eyes... Shivers running down my back... Goosebumps on my body... i wan to cry my heart out for u but doing this, it is nt going to bring u back or not going to let u rest in peace...
This is for u, my new fren....
"Even though i only got to knw u from my sis a few days ago, the tears i shed for u were from my heart... I only wish tat i had gotten to knw u earlier somehow... I just pray hard tat ur soul shld rest in peace... U have got a place in my heart...This is for u, my fren... "
27th April 2006
