Wednesday, January 25, 2006
Why doesn't ANYBODY understand a fact??
Does a depressed person need to knw the reason tat caused depression in them?
Is it a must??
I am already feeling so terrible, hopeless and useless abt myself...
I dun need someone else rubbing salt into my wound...
I am on the verge of breaking down day by day...
I am wearing a mask just to make those around me happy but in fact...
My eyes are filled with tears as i type...
I jus can't take it...
Too much for me to take...
So many things in my mind...
Family, frens and wat else?? Only God knws...
What din i do for u?
Din i shower u wif my love, care and concern?
To think of those days when i actually cried for u...
I feel so stupid... Used up... USELESS and HOPELESS...
I jus feel like crying til all my tears have dried up...
Words can't describe how i feel inside...
EMPTY is the only thing i can say is inside me...
Nothing but pure EMPTINESS...
The happiness i had has jus left me suddenly...
What wrong did i do to deserve this?
I can't hurt u 'coz u have feelings...
But wat u think i am?
A rock??
U think i dun have feelings? I can't feel pain or sorrow isit?
U think u r so special? Ever considered tat maybe it was me who made u feel special? Remember, i said MAYBE... get it... MAYBE...
To think tat i wasted my time for u,
I was a fool.
Nothing can describe wat u made me feel,
an Idiot, an Useless and a Hopeless is wat i feel...
I still wan to pour out more but i can't seem to express it in words...
Haiz... :'(