Wednesday, December 28, 2005
A 'emptyness' i have been feeling lately...
I knw well tat i have been lying to myself all the while...
I juz can't seem to convince myself juz like i managed to convince everyone around me...
Why is it so?
Each time i look around everything comes to my mind again...
I am juz cheating myself by saying tat i am ok...
But look into my eyes and u will knw tat i am not...
Things aren't the same anymore for me...
And i mean everything ....
I simply have lost hope in everything...
Am now walking without a direction in life...
I can see the path i wan but it's just tat i have no more confidence or strength to continue my path...
I am too scared to take any more steps ahead...
Afraid of getting hurt once again...
I knw tat i have no more strength to hold myself if anything ever happens...
I used up all my strength already and all i am left is a scar which wld never fade for away...
I juz wish tat i could re-wind back time...
Then i wld have nt even thought abt making tat one decision...
In a way, i wld have to thank you for letting me learn my lesson now thn ltr in life...
Thankz alot...